almost tomorrow

Tomorrow is my birthday, and i sort of feel like crap. Boyfriend issues, school issues( kinda not really) and i lost my Ti-83. On the bright side My mom bought me some vegan cheese online and im eating macadamia nuts straight from hawaii. yum. but seriously i dont know what to do.

Running on Hope

So this weekend was super busy, volunteering and today was the CIBC run for the cure. I raised 400 dollars, and ran the 5kms in 25 minutes and 40 seconds. My hair was pink! Honestly, the idea of breast cancer scares me. The thought of other peoplehaving it is so sad. The idea of other people suffering is so sad. Thats why I often cry alot in social. Anywhos, that is that. Anyways I figuired out that being pestered, questions and even disliked because I'm vegan is just never ending and is just a part of it. OH well, if thats what it takes I guess. ALso I'm trying to be really patient with the guy I like. Its really hard for me, I 'm the people who jumps, leaps, and plunges at opportinuties, because eventually tthey dissapear, walk away, and no i don;t like losing th eopportunity. But this time, I'm taking others advice, I'm waiting it out for him to come to me... if he ever does. Hopefully patience is virtue. Hopefully good things come to those who wait. Hopefully when all this waiting is over, I won't walking out alone.Thanks to everybody who has ever listened to my stories, looked at my perespective, loved me for who I am, and also thanks to anybody who donated towards the Breast Cancer foundation. YOu guys rock my socks. I run for everybody, the ones who are battling, I wun for the survivors, but I also run in the hopes that one day, nobody will have to worry about breast cancer. Not you, not me, not our children or theirs. Nobody. I say the twentyfirst century is the century of love. Love yourself and love others. Haha maybe if I'm still around in the twenty second century, it can be the century of peace :)

It's Friday Night.

It's friday night and I can already tell it's the worst week ever, I don't know why but I just can't explain what I'm feeling. It's all in my head I'm sure. Hopefully volunteering tomorrow at the Cornmaze will be fun. I get to dress up like a farmer! Today I saw Easy A with Shelby and Taz, and it was a great movie except for the fact it made me feel like I'm sorta alone, and that it'll take forever for me to find the one. Although I really like a guy right now, that I'm not giving up on. Hopefully I stand out enough for him to notice :) I've been uploading lotsa youtube videos lately which have been fun. I am also hoping that on Sunday, which is when I do the CIBC Breast Cancer Run for the Cure, that I can be faster than last year 30 minutes on the dot! I almost thought of walking this year but I felt that if I walked, it would be a let down to myself. I shall continue this speel some other day, off to cozy up in bed. Night

It's a piece of [vegan] cake.

Its ludicrous no matter how you slice it, but thats how its supposed to be. It's life, and everyone's is different. I see Jintana and Alex together and it makes me kinda happy, and it makes me kinda sad. At first I think what does she have that I don't, but then that though goes away. Shes pretty, nice, and summed up in one word, shes perfect, and I'm actually happy for her, and that outweighs anything. Hopefully they get together. I was telling Jenny how i was watching my anime, and though " He's so hot" then realized it was an anime character, and I was freakking out about how wierd it was, but then she said " That happens" and then I guess it just does, and it's not just me and maybe it's not that wierd. I remember when I was younger and when my boyfriend broke up with me, I pretended I was in love with Edward just to make the pain go away. And it worked, that's all that matters right? Love will save the day, even if it's love for a non-existent character, love for a friend, love for youself, or true love. Mutual love. Yeah, it breaks you too, but think bout it. You wouldn't give it up for the world. Keep smiling happy campers. Love will save the day ♥

Another Day

So today I was at T&T ( local asian super market) and i was walking around looking for vegan things. Then this white ( srry ) lady in her like 60's asked me to tell her the different flavours. I told her I couldn't read it, and then... SHE GOT MAD AT ME ! Fyi, there isn't only asian language, and just because I can't read it doesn't mean I'm illiterate. Geeeez.

Keep it to yourself.

So when people start questioning, about me not eating meat, or convincing me to eat meat, I basically cave. I am so strongly against the whole meat thing that I will snap.It's pretty insane. Its a personal choice so please stop questioning my motives. It's a big choice, so don't you think I looked into it? It's not some fad diet I am on. I am not MISINFORMED. I have read a lifetimes information on it, studied charts, read doctors recommedations, followed up on other people that are eating a plant based diet. I know what I'm doing, and frankly I'm probably a billion times healthier than you. Don't tell me I need meat. I don't. And just causee I'm not giving you all the reasons, is only because I don't want to snap on something that I find so important yet you find insignificant. It's a BIG deal to me. Just cause your fed propaganda about the facts behind meat and that your part of the majority doesn't mean you're right. Not once have i pushed you into stop eating meat, so please don't push me into it. I know you may just be trying to help, but this is one area I'd just like you to stay out of. This isn't directed to any one person. I'm just mad and venting. Btw theres a BIG difference between telling me what I'm doing is wrong, and asking me why I'm doing it. Just lay back and be nice. Thanks : )

Pro - Life

Thrift shopping tomoroww again. It is sort of the funnest thing ever and this time I'm going with the besteer. I posted a video on youtube today, first one in a long time. I also found my remote last nighht, hidden in a very obvious spot. I felt very outsmarted. Day one of swimming was a sucess and also a flunk. Our gym teacher wasn't here and the pool did not appear booked, so they stuck us in the deepend doing laps and other redonkulous doings. During waterpolo many people tried drowning me and were quite successful. Hallowweeen is in about a month and a half, I think I should get going on ideas.. maybe tinman or alice, or maybe something scarier. I'm not too sure. The guy I am currently like decided to walk with me today, then two seconds later decided against it and went to go study. Shutdown lol. Oh well, I am glad he picks schoool over small little nothings. I think today I will head off to bed early and read, because I have jumped back into the reading phase again, thank goodness. I feel much better about reading phases and or exercising phases that I do about anime/youtube phases. Also I'm going to film much more youtube videos of randomness, cause they bring me happiness.Tomro I will film Diesel. SO today Shelby showed me showed me Lady Gaga's latest outfit for the VMA's.. a meat dress. Needless to say I found it disguisting and horrible, and quite sad. Yes she is a outstanding fashion icon, but to me this is a loss. Today in leadership I proposed veganoptions on our school cafeteria menu. Hopefully this idea plays out well. Off to make like a nerd and crack open a book or two. You shape the world, and it's slightly beautiful :)

I am so gross, and so human : )

So i went to go sneeze into my shirt/shoulderrrr, because sneezing into your hands is so unsanitary due to all the htings you touched, but instead my hair was on my shoulder and i sneezed on that instead. EWWWWWW. Anyways, my remote is still MIA, therefore i missed the VMA's. Anybody else watch it? Was it worth it? I didn't watch it last year either so whatevss.Being very Sunday nightish right now and folding laundry, along with the youtube, and facebook. Makeup Vlogger meaganheartsmakeup was talking about how MAC reps are much more angry looking whereas Sephora reps are much more friendly << agreeeeed x a billion. I feeel like going out for a jog, even tho its latish out ( 1036 ) Hmm in the last hour i ate an orange, half a banana, a quarter of a mango, two tablespoons of hummus, half a pita bread, and three crackers. Holy motheeeer ! I attempted giving food away via facebook, but it did not work so well, lol. Today was my first time inside Value Village. It was one of the funnest experiences ever. I purchased vintage flats, the Japanesey/Korean Flats, a jacket, A Knit Tshirt Thingy, and a Belt.

( click it, it gets biigger )Anyways that isn't my value village, i just decided to fillin the empty spot with one i found on google :). Hm whaaat elsee? School starts up again tomro, and my first leadership seminar. Saturday is my first volentter op with Shelby at Kilkenny Hall. Then the run, then two events working with the homeless. All week in school I am swimming first thing in the morning, so Im guessing my makeup will hardly be done and my hair will not be done at all. Au Natural Baby :) Physics test tomorrow as well, I am aiming for the 100% mark. As an ode to my new clothes from VV and XXI, ( Value Village and Forever 21) tomorrow is vintage day. ♥ I have a feeling that this year will beee waay better than the last, and if its not, then I'lll just make it that waay. Everybody do it up! Life isn't set in stone, its all in perspective. So reset your mind, and KNOW that things are only going to go up from here. Down is impossible. Negative is unthinkable, and failure, thats not an option. SMILEEEE a ton, and it'll show. (:)

9/11

Today being 9/11, people are sending their hearts out to those who have passed and those families still suffering. My heart goes out too. I think its great that everybody is doing this but there is so much more that can be done. Has anybody seen the movie sicko? There is so much help that isn't being recieved by the people taking part in this and if the whole world realized this, many people will be taken care of. On to my next point: Florida man burning the Kuran. Too much media hype. It has been done before and the media is just making the story bigger. He probably is enjoying the publicity. It's just a stunt. If it wasn't publicized the event wouldn't of hurt so many people. What he is doing is horrible, but the media just blew it out of porportion. Thats my blab on politics for the day. Anyways today Shelby and I went shopping at west ed and foundd the bestest deals in the whole wide world. Don't you just love finding a bargain? After that we went to the Waterpark and had fun althoiough I took in alot of water through my nose. Oddly enough I know how to swim, can hold my breath for a long time, can exhale in porportionate amounts ,and tread water yet I cannot grasp how to float ( I used to be able to). Hm whatelse, heart break hurts and you get over it. I mean, it never seems like it but you move on. It's life, and it is a good thing, don't worry. Righhhht now I'm really into this guy. Yes I'm straight, is that surprising? Jk. Anyways, I doubt he'll ever take an interest in me or even notice how much I like him. But I guess it's okay. I am quite content right now. He's a nice guy, even though he makes me do the stupidest things and say the stupidest things around him. I sound like just a typical teenage girl. Damn. Shelby and I have officially joined the Green Team and I have taken quite an interest in it. I'm excited for it again next week. FYI we just pick up recycling, help the enviroment so on and so forth and I take quite a fancy in it. Also I am joining Leadership and doing a whole bunch of other volenteeeering acts. Hello scholarships :) ! Hm, I seem to have lost my tv remote control for over 2 months.. Please come back to me. No i am not too lazy to turn off the tv, I just want to set my TV on sleep, and it doesnt have that button > :(. So far during school I have not worn a pair of jeans yet. I feel like I still need to make more of an impression, and not blend in quite yet. I enjoy dressing up, it's just fun altogether and I feel much more fashionable, and can pretend to be a teacher with clicky heels behind other students. My mother found some toe rings, which I really enjoy but it's about 2 months too late to be wearing them. Summer ended quite a while ago. The weather feels like its skipping Autumn and going straight to Winter. To everybody ot there, yes I am complaining about not having my remote but honestly its no biggy. Be greatful for what you have. If your are reading this right now, you are way more privledged than most. If you can freely drink a glass of water everyday, or go to bed under a roof you are lucky. Somebody loves you, somebody cares. Share the love ♥

Males in General

Hello, ol'faithful. A friend of mine once told me, that depsperate isn''t cool. It was pretty obvious, I was desperate. Maybe, I still am. You could say I had high standards: good looks, funny, smart and knew how to prioritize. He had to know when to stop, and when to start, and know how to save money. He had to have a outlook, be supportive, and had decent parents that liked me. You see, when I pick a guy, all these standards go away. Love is love, and I am blind. I suppose, I just don't like being alone. Is it the same for everybody? It think the word falling is quite appropriate. So last night I downloaded an app for my phone which claimed would hypnotize me and reduce my snacking habits, and surprisingly i was actually hypnotized for a while, and it was such a wierd experience. I'm trying it again! Tomorrow I am doing my liquid fast and this time I will suceeed. << lol. Gym in the mornings is still fun, and hasn't let me down yet. Also went to the gym tonight and worked on the bikes the whole time, and burned 300+ calories. I feel like it was pretty progressive. You know how some people have more than one best friend? Newsflash but not everybody can be your best friend. There are things such as just friends and aquaintances, and it's okay to have enemies. Since I feel as though I need to step up, I am off to go find a outfit and study ( even though I don't have a test). Pat yourself on the back :)

Welcome Back Christine. Why Thank You : )

Hahha so I've become a white-wash asian fail and have gotten back into the land of anime. Yes. I have been defeated by my reoccuring addiction. Sorry for not blogging, not that I have many followers, but y'know. SO going vegan has been pretty easy so far. I don't really miss too much except for cheesecake, but once I find a vegan version I'll be fine. I need to cut down on portion sizes still because between 6 and 10 o clock i just eat non stop and thats no good. I keep saying I'm finally getting over Cameron but I dont really know if I am. He's far away, but I still constantly think of him. Am I in love? Not at all. Do I miss him? A little. SO I have been in school for exactly 2 days now, and so far my favorite class is Physical Education. Although I start my day off with gym every morning, quite surprisingly I continue on with my day looking quite the same as before I stepped in gym. Going to give myself props for that :). My horrendously messy room is now just a normal messy room, as I finally got to putting away my toothpaste covered suitcase. My desk is still a mess, which I will be working on because I find clutter to slow down my brain flow :/. Shelby and I went to the mall today and I got about a billion things for under 4 dollars each, yay for bargains! I haven't picked up the guitar since before Cali, so I'm thinking of starting again once my room is clean, as well as starting my pushup/situp/jumprope ritual. If anybody ever feels lack of motivation at anything, either at school joining a team, what to wear, or encouragement at the gym, my advice is bring a friend. Honestly, its what they're there for. Oh yes, I got bangs, once again, and apperently so did Jenny, which slightly rocks my boat but oh well. Summer is turning into Autumn. I know its not a new year, but it is a new school year for me. My New [School] Year Resolution: Stay Vegan, aim for over 85%, no skipping school, Clean my room and keep it clean, and try to be happy, even if it means never having a boyfriend ( yeah right ;P ). Halloween's coming up, what's everybody doing for that? Anyways going to cut it off now; try your best at everything, winning is fun, but winning faily is funner. When you put yourself in the best possible position, things can only go up from there. Starting today, put yourself there, happiness is only a step away. Smiling is a must.

Vegan

I am now vegan, and theres no going back. It's scary but exciting. ( : I'm happy I'm following through with something that I believe in. Care to join me in this adventure ?

Tumblr .

No I am not deserting this blog. Instead, I'm going to have two, that say different things. Feel free to check out my Tumblr account as well. Both blogs will be updated daily.>> http://happinessnlife.tumblr.com/

Meet you in the Passenger seat

Today I registered for grade eleven. I didn't end up getting my Forensics class, instead getting a spare. Slightly upsetting but hey, what can a girl do? I spent most of the day in my room watching anime, the other part out shopping for supplies and appliaces with my parents. Needless to say, I actually had a fantastic day. I'm talking to Cameron lots now and it brings up my happiness level, even though they are merely messages on facebook. My mom let me drive in places other than a parking lot today. Driving is so fun, being another great part of my day. I'm stoked for shopping tomorrow with Shelby! It feels like I haven't seen her in a long time although that isn't really the case. One day someone will become such a big part of your life that seconds gone feels like minutes,days feel like weeks. By the way, stop looking for your soul mate. You'll run into each other, and not even realize the chemistry happening. "The One" is like a train. Theres no use running, because if you're early its not going to be there. When it comes, it will be worthwhile, but you can make wait alone, or you can go out live your life, and be there when the train arrives. Its pretty much a win-win situation. Unless, you win a brand new car. That works too. Te Amo ♥

Jane Doe

Today was another average day. I met a new person: Chris. Seen him around before just never actually approached him or made conversation. I think yesterday I was overexaggerating my emotions, like I always do. I tend to overthink. Bad christine, bad! Anyways today was much better, and.. Lost my train of thought. Carrying on.. I'm really glad I have the friends I do. If i had my pick, I'd pick the ones I already have.Dear world, don't convince yourself something is wrong unless you have absolute proof, you might just drive yourself crazy.

I must be doing something wrong.

Alone, and cold.Happiness isn't always constant. Lifes a rollercoaster. Up, down, sideways, backwards, nauseous, sickening, and sometimes,a thrill. The bumps are inevitable, but I guess after the rides over, you over came it all. Today, was a bump. I don't know why but I just can't think straight. I'm not very hungry and I feel super broken inside. I think everybody goes through this though, so I'm trying to just look forward to a better day, and better days will come. Eventually. Anyways, it is freezing in my room. My room is a never ending mess, and I hate it. Registration is coming so fast, only two days away. Its Monday, which means I haven't seen Cameron in 3 days, yet I am so unbelievably upset. What the hell is my problem. I've been having nightmares every night. I check facebook every minute of the day.Somebody check me in an insanitarium... well maybe not yet. If this proceeds for another year then you have my okay ;). Anyways, why is Criss Angel involved in Miss Universe? He probably knows smack about beauty.Anyways, alot of people are agreeeing tumblr is much better than blogspot? Should I relocate? Current state: Alone & Cold. Dear Christine: you need to follow your own advice more. Heres some advice: It's summer, go out and be happy people. Summer isn't even close to over. So much can happen in a week, in a day. So much happiness can be captured in a single second. Call up all your friends, and have a blast. Don't blow all your money. Happiness is beauty. You can be beautiful forever. Am I going to follow my advice? I have no idea. But remember, to smile for me. : )

Moving on

Sometimes things change and you don't even notice. Tyler used to be one of my best friends. Today I found out he has had a girlfriend for quite sometime via facebook. Where did it all go? On the other hand I've known Brian for 11 years and we still talk. Thats awesome.Cameron moving away has definatly sunk in. It's not a good feeling, but people move away, along with broken hearts is just a part of life. I knew it was coming but that didn't make it any easier. Saw Vampires Suck with Brian and it brought up a couple laughs. I had a good time : ) Although it took so long just for a running train to actually arrive, it was indeed quite lame. And my anemic body really showed today. Its insane to be this cold mid- August. Canadian stereotypes come alive. Or not. It's just my silly body being temperature deficient. No insight today guys. Again I am way too tired. The truth is I think sleep is a waste of time and dreams are quite dissapointing when they are so much better than reality. Sometimes you just have to wake up, move on and know that it's all you can really do. Sometimes you have to remember dreams can be achieved too. Theres no such thing as dreaming too big. ( okay maybe that was a tad insightful :P )

Afternoon, folks !

This is my first blog not written at night! Anyways, I might repeat things that happened over the duration of my trip because I don't quite remember what I have already stated. The first place we went when we got to Anaheim was Denny's. We proceeded to go there every night, between the hours of 11pm and 2 am. Not once did we go there for breakfast. The driver who drove us from LAX to our hotel drove around the long way just to make more money. This sort of thing angers me. Me and Shelby had fun in Disneyland, going on almost ever ride. I got soaked on splash mountain, and one morning we went on Big Thunder mountain three times because of the lack of lines. We had a pass that let us go to the park an hour early, but we were never ready by 7am, so we'd usually get there between 8 and 9. Did I mention we had a pool that changed colors!? One day we went to the garden walk, a entertainment dining place and this teenager guy tried selling me a cd. He asked me if I liked rock, and I froze up and said i don't know. Good going Christine. This isn't applicable to California, but does anybody else out there feel like if your in a public washroom and the first one you enter is clean, and is toilet paper stocked, you just won the lottery ? Its crazy what somebody can do to the stall. How did you get shit on the walls ? That's disguisting. Sit down. Cameron's moving tomorrow, and we went on a very nice date today. We drove around the city and ended up going to Moxie's. Then he didnt tell me where we were going and drove to the Legislature and we went for a walk and laid in the grass. It was in all essense: perfect. Random tidbit of information, but California has some really beautiful people. Don't say anything that you don't want people to remember you by, because truth is, they will remember. Let them remember the good.

Cold Feet, Literally.

Must I say that the smokey air is killing me, and that Canada is a cold place, even in August. I am freezing, but maybe thats because its 1:40 am, but still ! People need to change their lives so that the enviroment is stable, and that Canadian weather is not so out of whack ! Am I glad to be home from sunny California? Yes and no. I would happiuly stay in California, if I could bring all my loved ones/ items with me. Oh and hide the yummy food. I think I gained weight but I'm noticing today that maybe it went to my face! Ew. Anywho, today I went to the gym and played basketball and badminton, and a little bit of volleyball. It was fun, and by the way is a great alternative to a boring ol' workout machine ( not that i dont enjoy those as well.) Cameron is a great dancer. I think thats pree attractive. hahah and hes ripped. That helps too :P OMG. On the plane ride back my toothpaste exploded and alot of stuff got covered. No biggy but it is a huge hassle. I said id blog a ton today but instead i went out and had a good day. I'm going to miss Cam so much. I'm lucky to be in love with my bestfriend, Lucky to have been where I have been,Lucky to be coming home again..

Ten Days Later.

A few blisters, laughs, and a couple tears later I am finallly back. Along with a whole lot of cash blown ( the most I have possible spent in ten days). I am quite exhausted and will probably blog a billion and one blogs tomro about absolutely everything, but I'd like to add I had a blastie, but it came along with a package of weightgaina ndn slightly bad skin. I am determined to get rid of it by the time school starts. Shelby and I had wayyy ttoo much cheeese on the trip and I am quite eager to begin my new vegan life. Im not going to hurdle into it too soon though. September is my goal. Stay tuneeed, beautiful people :) ♥

Endless amounts of awesome

A little bit over 12.5 hours before we board the plane. My last blog about 24 hours was actually way more 24 hours. My bad. Today i turned my ugly destroyed suitcase into an ugly pinkish destroyeed suitcase. Apperently the spraypaint is too thin to be applied on a suitcase... in any case, it doesnt look a ton better, but nonetheless is pink. Pink is pretty awesome compared to the drab blue it is. So flying to California, then getting there, checking in, then heading to downtown disney. Disneyland and California Adventure for the five days after that, followed by Seaworld, then we are switching to a hotel in the Universal City district, going to Universal Studios and visiting other cool places in that area. Sounds like plan :). Wrote an " I miss you" note to Cam today, and I'm just wondering, is that tacky? Or do guys actually appreciate that type of thing? Who knows, the point is that I did what I intended to do. Going to sneak in some last minute packing, which is always accompanied with the anxiety of forgetting something, which may result remembering something while I'm at the airport, which is then too late, but who knows, I might get everything :). Out comes the handi dandy check list!!!! Finished off my Lush mask today, and boy it makes my face smell yummy. Today I got mail, and I thought it was my report card and got excited, but no; it was merely a newsletter. Darnit. Anyways, if you ask my mother, my driving skills have improved. Hopefully in less than a year I will be amongst the drivers on the road, on my own. Yes I know that is a scary thought, but bear with me. P.s. Shelby's laptop is alive and well, and has been put to good use once again. Everybody please rise to join me in singing Hallelujah.[ Crowd sings Halleljuah in angelic voices that flow into the air above] You may now be seated. Props to anybody that stood up. I didnt even stand up. Thing I will miss while in California: Deisel, Cameron ( but it would be the same here), my guitar, and thats pretty much it. Maybe the full use of my cellular device, but thats not really a big deal. This will be my last blog until August 18th. Talk to you then. Tippity Jar Says: Be strong, embrace the good things in life and always be yourself. Happiness will sneak up upon you, and you might not even notice, but it's there. ESS EMM EYE ELL EEEE

It's not all black and white.

Less than 24 hours till blast offf! No we aren't taking a rocket, but I like the idea of it.. Haha so today I had a few to drink. It's pretty funny cause I went there with 6 bottles, drank 3 ( 1 of mine, 2 of somebody elses) and went home with 10 bottles. Pree good deal I'd say. Anyways, during all this drinking, I managed to spill my drink on myself, and electrocute myself. No I was not drunk and no i did not merely "shock" myself, I full on electrocuted myself, complete with burn marks and lingering pain.Yes, the electric fly swatter did have a "do not touch" sign, ( it's a little blurry, but you get the picture.) So what did this idiot do? I turned it on and I touched it.. Yeah, not one of my brightest ideas; it was definately a life learning experience. Sometimes, it's not good to be a rebel.The warning label is there for a reason. Read it, and listen. Anywho, i learnt to play a new song on the guitar today, which makes me uber happy. I was planning to pack slightly heavy for Cali, but now I think I'm going to pack pretty light, just so I can bring more back. It may sound easy, but it's actually quite hard figuiring out which clothes to leave behind. Anyways, while I try figuiring this mess out, I'd like to add that drinking is not good. It's kinda like a splurge to me. A few times a year max, and I have yet to have so much that I regretted it. Hm, heres a good tip: Just don't drink, and while your at it, cut meat out of your diet too. :) Do as I say, not as I do. Good bye my loyal minions. You must obey. Just kidding. Do what makes you happy, but cut the corners in moderation. More often than not it's good, to be good.

Burn baby burn

SO today can be added to the list of great summer days. The weather wasn't all too nice but I spent pretty much all day indoors. Indoors as in chilling with Brian. He tuned my guitar and made it sound uber awesome. He taught me chords and how to play some songs ( still can't play em). I learnt how to play some song that apperently everybody knows how to play that only uses the E string, but oh well. I learnt a song in one day! Props to Bri for being a rad teacher. My fingers burn but I think it's a good sacrifice in the name of music. Besides, it reminds me that I actually worked on something today. Today I tried and I'm pretty happy with the progress.Another good thing today was that I went driving again. Yes, it was just in a parking lot but it was experience, and I had fun.I'm starting to get used to my awful haircut, ( awful on me, not awful on its own) but I would never ask for it again. It seems too much like something everybody else has, and I mean there's nothing wrong with what everybody else has, except I would much rather prefer to be different. Last good mentionable thing of the day, is that Cam texted me from Toronto. Yes, it was just a text, and yes it cost me money, but it made me incredibly happy. It meant that he was thinking of me, which is nice. :) Dear world, you have the power to make somebody smile, so why not use it?

Take a leap of faith.

It's now or never, and if you want it to happen, make it happen.No you can't expect happiness. You create it. Happiness comes from within, yes it's just a feeling that may seem random,but its not. Happiness is born with every act of satisfaction. Do good, feel good. Be who you want to be, and know that your capable of anything. We all have goals, some big some small, and some of us proabably would like to think we are spontaneous and unexpected and that you 'go with the flow'. But thats not really true. You plan on brushing your teeth tomorrow dont you? ( please say yes ) and you do plan on wearing shoes, speaking in english, breathing, eating, sleeping. There are things you can't help, and then there are the things that you can. These things can make you happy, even in the slightest way. Like.. opening the door for that little old lady, you shouldnt expect anything in return, but instead you get so much more back. You get the satisfaction of helpng others, you may be thanked which makes you just feel good in general, and if you really think about it, thats one door closer to getting you those beautiful biceps. Its a win-win situation. Do good, feel good. It's 3 am, and in the last 6 hours, I have been singing for atleast 4 of them. Which probably benefitted nobody but myself. My throat is strained, but it's just pure bliss. "It hurts so good." Plus after 6-7 hours of waiting, Brian is singing. Which is great. Tomorrow Brian's coming over, and that would be the second time I've seen him in the last 2 to 3 years, and also the second time this summer. He's tuning my guitar which would make me eternally grateful although it is a guitar I cannot play. One of my goals, other than becoming a vegan, is playing the guitar. These goals are managable, and I will reach them. Half of the happiness comes from achieving the goal, but the other half comes from the journey there. Just like when an exciting event is coming up, half of the happiness is coming from the anticipation. Think about it. Or not. Either way, go out and be happy. Nothing is holding you back. Go out, and take a leap of faith. And if you don't reach the other side, it's okay. It's a stepping stone. You are that much closer. You can be happier even if you are happy. No limits, just jump.

Home is, where the heart is

If change is good, then why does this suck so much? I honestly think this is one of the best summers of my life and California hasn't even come yet. I think it has something to do with copious amounts of freedom, and maybe the fact that I'm single. I don't necessarily enjoy being single, but I do enjoy not being trapped. Doesn't mean I don't want somebody permanently there though. A boyfriend would be nice. Hung out with Jt today. We spent so much time talking and overall had a great day. Also went to dinner ( Moxies- Split a Med Bread, I had Spinach Salad w/Champagne Strawberries, Jt got a burger, and we both shared "Chocolate Expresso Mousse" and "White Chocolate Brownie Bite"... or whatever they are actually called ) and went to a movie ( Despicable Me, so adorable and funny. Only 4 more days until California, and it still hasn't settled in yet. Come Sunday I will be super excited. I think my lettering job for people is starting to get confusing.. starting tomorrow I think I will start naming on a first name basis. I'm glad that during the summer I have enough time to take care of myself to the fullest extent, meaning Cleansing, Mask, Toner, Mousterizer, Brushing teeth 3 times a day, Flossing, etc. I wash my hands like a germaphobe ( although I'm not), I love feeling clean. I can't wait to get back to reading for a couple of hours a day, and also finishing off a couple of books on the plane to/from Cali. It may also be wierd but I can't wait till September when I start being vegan. I will feel 110% better about myself. I enjoy challenges, and I hate not following through, so this ones going to be a toughie, but in the future I will be so glad i stuck with it. Goals are cool, living outside of the box is too. I tend to do both. Do it up, remember, love always and every once in a while, come back home.♥

Gone the next.

Got a haircut today with S. I gotta say I dont think I like it.. :( Hopefully I can work my magic with a blowdrier/straightener/curling iron to make something look decent. Today was yet again, another great day. Went to Brewsters and had a veggie burger and leprechaun pie which was absolutely delish... the only bad part was the other people i was with were chowing down on 100 wings. It was pretty much revolting.I met new people today, which I thoroghly enjoyed. Meeting new people is so fun. You get to start off with a blank slate and fill it however you choose. Always start off positively, I'd say. C leaves tomorrow for Toronto, but I'm pretty sure we will chill when I get back from Cali, before he moves away. Funny how you can become so close with someone so fast. I hate watching people leave. He never once said goodbye, it was always: "I'll see you soon, mkay ? ". I'm glad nobody said goodbye, it might of been hard. And even if he thinks I'm a joke, I'm glad we had time. I'm glad there were no goodbyes. He offered to let me drive today, and i said no, not trusting myself. Didn't want to become remember as the person who crashed his car. Thats no good. To everybody out there, follow your heart, even if it ends inn pain, sometimes the ride was worth it. ♥ Oh, and always use a heat protectant :P

Happy Monday

If all Mondays were like today, I would never complain. I would start ever week off, not only content, but maybe blissful. Today was awesome, as expected. But its the last time Ill see C for who knows how long. Saw Salt today, i thought it had a pretty good plot but pretty bad ending that left me feeling like it didnt fulfill itself, also ate at my favorite restaurant "Mikado" and got marble slab ( possibly the last marble slab of my life ) it was deeeelish! The day went by really fast and I wish everyday was like today. I even think that my makeup was the best it's ever been today, which would mean nothing to normal people and alot to beauty gurus. Poor S's laptop passed away today, a moment of silence for one of her most beloved objects. -insert silence here-... Anyways, hope everybody made the most out of their Monday, along with every otherday. Cheers to a good Tuesday, and hopefully S, Mom and myself all get good haircuts. Helpful Hint:Change is possible, change for the better. Only you can determine what better is. Don't lie to yourself. Always, love ♥

Close your eyes and start counting

One week from today S and myself will be off to America! Wheeeu. Today ( yesterday?? , ) was such a baddish day. I started the day off by getting yelled at by some African lady in words I counldnt comprehend.Then I spent quite a while getting dog poop out of the carpet and a little bit of spilt parmesan cheese.The youtube videos were being choppy.. Then i had a bite of a cheese pizza, which actually was pepperoni :( It wasn't all bad though ! My mother, S and I went to Whyte Ave, haddd amazing nachos, made awesome purchases at Lush, me and S laughed pretty much all day, and to top it off, I got to drive..bwuahhaha. Not fast and not far.. don't worry. Humanity is not at risk for being hit by me quite yet. Yesterday I went to CapEx with C and a bunch of asians and I had a really good time. C won me a giant blow up crayon ( seen above ). And yes, I ate even more mini donuts. My bad. S and I are getting better at filming videos. Hopefully the editting programs and the files cooperate sometime soon. The world needs to view our awesomeness :) ! Chilling with C tomoro aka, definatly a good time. C leaves for toronto on wednesday.. and when I get back from Cali, C will already have moved to Regina. I feel like I need a constant. People need to stay put. I'm not going anywhere. :P Life Tip: Appreciate what you have. Everything you need is right in front of you and if not, work with what you have.Everything has value.Don't realize it when it's too late. One day it's here and the next its gone. Love.

Summer Life

Another long day. Got back from the Ex and my parents are outa town. Pretty ironic. I think if I've learnt anything this year, it's to take things on the lighter side and don't let people walk all over you. Also, there are alot of things that are a waste of time, a waste of money, just simply :a waste. Sometimes it's okay to have things your way, especially if it is something that will make you truly happy. Follow your heart, sometimes all you need is something different. Go have fun, and don't play by the rules.There are no rules: just be you, and be happy.

YouTube

Spent deux hours filming with shelby, which half didnt showup on my pc. Anyways , had tons of fun and laughed alot and videos shud be up tomro, or soon after. . Makeup tutorials plus us being retarded, anybody? Didn't think so :P but go check it out anyways. Had really yummy desert tonight at earls. It was probably really bad, but i had a pretty healthy main course ( starter salad ). Purchased some reallllly cheap makeup at Ardene today, which is quite funny. C is picking me up tomro and we are going to Cap Ex with a bunch of asians... great * note the sarcasm. My phone bill this month was was like 160 bucks. Ouch. :*( , oh wells, it was happiness money i suppose. Sorry mom. I really need to drive. I would rather enjoy it. Hopefully I don't crash. Crashing is bad. Mosquitos are still on a rampage. I hate it. I become very bumpy, and have a pretty large reaction. I thought it was normal, until i compared myself to others. I hate it when you slap a mosquito and the blood squirts out. Gnarsty :/ California is coming up quite soon, also haircut on August 3rd . I haven't done anything with my hair in so long and I'm slightly scared. Not dying it though, just a cut with S and mom. Heritage days on Monday, and alot more youtubing. Hopefully tomorrow will not be filled with junk food eating, purging and sickness. I will try, you guys sould too. Resist temptation; Be strong. Peaaaaace ♥

Props to OB.

Omg, Barrack Obama put a 10% tax on tanning. Good job Obama! First step to preventing orange people and melanoma. Highfive to the president of the United States of America. I bet he's never gone tanning ;P

The world as we know it

So all month its been raining, and all of a sudden, out comes the killer mosquitos! And they attacked all of everybody, slowly killing us,one by one..Jk , but it is horrible, and getting worse. Anywayss trying to wean myself off of junk. I think junk=disguisting feeling of sickness + fattiness so yeah. Summer has officially started today, even though it's pouring outside like a waterhorse. School ended yesterday, thank goodness! 100% on my essay too, wheeu ! Cali in less than eleven days, seeing D in less than that :). Hello happiness. People say money can't buy happiness, but thats only true to a certain extent. Money can buy you things that result in happiness, but in any case: spend wisely boys and girls. I wish people were more confident in their answers : maybe, iuno, probably, dont count. It's yes or no, or i'll get back to you in x amount of time. That way people can get on with their lives instead of waiting for an answer. But I guess some people are exceptions :), they are worth waiting around for quite a while. My Victoria Secret bathing suit finally came in the mail today, yay ! Pictures up eventually (maybe). S is watching The Real World next to me right now. Anybody else out there watching time killer teeniebopper shows? If I watched too many, my brain might explode. I generally stay away from them and watch more educational things like the Food Network, HGTV, or House. Aperrrently I'm going to the Ex 2 more times. Thats 6 times all together. That's the most Ive ever gone, but I guess Im just making the most out of this summer. I've lost my eyeline more than once this week. And before that I've never lost it before. My room isn't a complete mess either. I believe you reap alot of benefits from cleaning. Its totally worth it. Tip of the day: clean, clean, CLEAN! ( you might find something super awesome. One of my favorite things to find is an old card that had alot of sentimental meaning. More often than not I don't talk to that person anymore. My second favorite thing is money. S just said shes going on California Screaming with me! So excited, the trip is going to be a billion times better now. S is being a loser and trying to read my blog through a camcorder on zoom from really far away. Anyways gonna head out now, S is going to watch the retarded Jersey Shore, and I'm going to do my nails or something. EVerbody should do these 5 things: Clean, Youtube: Saladfingers, Drink water, Be friendly and Smile :)

I had a good day.

Rephrase, I had several good days. The first two with D . Super amazing. Beyond words, unexplainable. Then spent the next day as a "third wheel", surprisingly not that bad. I had a blast and made a new friend! Then I spent today with B. who I haven't seen for ages, and evrything just fell back into its friendly place again. I ate more junk than I've had all month, but i think I'm not going to eat bad things really ever again after august. Bahhaha I bought like 10 wierd flavours of "Jelly Belly jellybeans", buttered popcorn is pretty cool but slightly revolting. The concert tonight was pree amazing, even though I had no idea who it was, I clapped until my hands burned, then clapped some more.Fireworks are a good way to end anyday. During this weekend I realized, how hard it hits that every night I'm so alone. I guess I'm just waiting for opportunity to knock at my door. I'm waiting to be a one of two wheels, instead of the third. I'm waiting for somebody to stay instead of walking away. I'm just plain waiting. But waiting means it's not the end. All in all, had a fantastic weekend, can't wait for the next. Only 3 more days left of school, and 16-ish days until California. Hopefully, the cards play out right, and everyone gets to be happy. Goodluck, and remember:It's not what your doing, its who your with. ♥

Eh? Whitewash..

So I'm Canadian... but asian. Anywho, I do the whole stereotypical Canadian thing ending about 25% of my sentences with "eh". I don't think I do anything a typical asian would do ? Judging myself I'd call myself whitewash... or if your like my VERY white social teacher you'd call it "being a banana." He is silly! Do you know what I do sometimes? I hide twenty dollar bills in my books. Then when I reread it, I get really happy cause I just found a twenty dollar bill. Now i don't reread it till about a year or so later, so it's a complete surprise and makes me very happy. I also used to do that thing where I changed the time on my clock so it was like an hour early, and trick myself into thinking I was getting up at like 6, when it was actually 5 am. I out smarted it though, and eventually just slept in till I was suppose to get up. Once again was a beautiful day, thank goodness and it was so easy to just step outside and go for a walk. I love walks, especially if there's someone to talk to, although most of the time it's just me and Deisel, in which case we run, because I'm not really sure if he knows how to slow down. Random things I'm excited for: tomorrow with D, Cali-forn-I-ayy, CapEX, omg... CHRISTMAS ( i know its a tad early but, meh ) , me and S starting a youtube channel, and other wierd things that would bore you guys, such as online shopping tonight, tehe. Omg, and I know its a fair ways away but I'm excited for the xbox360 release of Gears of War 3! Oh and I found five bucks in my laundry today, which is just plain awesome. Hm, what elseee... do you know what I look at alot ? Eyebrows... they are so different. And omg ( ive said omg alot eh ? ) they, who ever the hell "they are", have created a swimming treadmill, so instead of running on a ongoing track , you swim in oncoming water... in your own home! Bahhahaha.... but apperently these were invented in the 80's ... where the hell have I been ? Google "endless pool." Hahah, I have way too much spare time. So today, I went to the Capitals vs. Cimmeroons ( Tijuana, Mexico ) game , and my team got to go and stand on the field and shake the Capital's hands during the nation anthem. Then me and the mascot Razzle became friends, and he kissed me, and we danced and he ate my head and stuff. To cap ( ahahha PUN ) off the night, the Caps won, woooooot!! Bad thing of the night: i ate cheese perogies :(, and a couple spoonfuls of ice cream but I felt bad so I gave it to E. I have school tomro morning and then homefully i get to see D :)! When I'm older I was lasik eye surgery. I hateeee the process of wearing glasses, putting in contacts, removing them, but hey, atleast with them I can see. When I'm swimming I'm blind as a bat, and people must feel flattered that I'm staring at them, but I'm not... I just cant see them. Do you know what slightly agitates me? Sometimes when Deisel goes in and out of the house ( through the back ) flies come in my house... and they arent regular flies they are mutant ninja flies ! It's slightly scary, but I guess I'd rather crazy mutant flies than no flies at all. Then the ecosystem would be out of wack and then the world might invert and everybody would turn into negative space!!!! Jk, but seriously, these flies need to peace outa my house. Do you know what may seem like it causes problems and stuff but actually is better overall ? Honesty. You may hear this so much, but you can't ever protect somebody by lying. It's like helping somebody who has a headache by stabbing their foot because it will relocate the pain somewhere else, it just makes no sense, so be honest. Tip for life: Prepare for the worst, hope for the best. Smile along the way. oh, and be silly. Thats important. You can't grow up without your inner child. And no, i don't mean "get knocked up."Pfffffffffffffft ! Get outa here :D (p.s. photos up tomro, S fell asleep. she has the pics )

long day ? i think so !

This morning i was up late.. 620. Yes thats late according to me! And then school was very drabby, full of alot of writing and boredom. After school I went to Healthfare with S and had baked sweet potatos (yum) and a spinach smoothie ( yummy and nutritous, although S thought it was gross.. she had a peanut butter banana smoothie ) . Then went to the gym/pool. And guess what ? I was so pumped and in a rush, I forgot my shoes :( , so i ran the track in my gladiators, I didnt work out and instead spent the rest of the time in the pool. A while ago, I used to be so scared to go in the lap pool, because I was afraid people would see my horrible swimming skills but now I love it! OMG, and flippers are SO fun! .. not that I went in the lap pool today, i went in the wave pool, lol. Is anybody out there a work out freak? I'd like to meet you and discuss the act of working out! When I'm at home, my routine is usually , situps, pushups,burpies, weights and skipping ? Also I do things that I have no idea what they are called like the little bicycle thing you do with your body and the one where you are flat and then scrunch up... Anyways, exercising is one of the things in my life that makes me feel better. And if I'm angry, I'll work twice as hard. Do you know what I learnt ? Squished up fruit is WAY better than jam. It's healthier, not processed, without added sugar, and most of all.....FUN! Things I'm trying to cut out of my diet by 2012: dairy, sugar, salt, white flour, processed foods, and toxic people. You all know what toxic people are. They have way too much influence over you and make you a worse person, not a better one. When you hang out with them, it's because you feel obligated to, not because you truely enjoy being with them. I don't think i have a ton of toxic people in my life right now though, maybe one or two. Once you eat right, exercise, and rid yourself of toxic friends, your on the right track to being happy. Even if your lonely, its okay. You'll be healthier, release tons of endorphins, and feel happier over all, just by reaching your goals. Is anybody out there into really stramlined music? I can listen to it, dance to it, but it will never be my preference. I generally listen to Indie music, generally artists nobody has ever heard of. Music makes you happy too! I have plans for pretty much everyday this week, which also makes me happy. I like having plans, goals... a destination. Although to be honest I am a really random person, who often does splur of the moment things withing those plans. Heres a happy goal for all you readers out there: try something new each day for a week, then comment on it ! America's got Talent is on pretty soon, anybody else out there watch it religiously ? I wonder if i ask too many questions for a blog... Tip of the day: The only supplements you should be taking, unless otherwise precribed is Vitamin D ( only if you live in Canada) and B12 ( vegetarians ). Any other supplements will change the way your body metabolizes things and releases nutrients and hormones, therefore leading your body to be out of wack. Oh yeah, don't forget to smile, cause it just makes you a billion times more attractive. :)

Things get better. Trust me.

So I started off with a craptacular summer and it just keeps getting better ! So, about a week ago ( a little bit more) i found a lump in my breast, which followed up with doctors appointments and ultrasounds. Needless to say, i disliked being touched but it had to be done. Anywho, today I found out that it's fibroadenomas, a benign tumour. Yay, no cancer for me :) ! I'd also like to add last week my mother declared that my family along with my best friend S would be going to California for ten days. I'm uber excited as it's the first time my bestfriend has gone out of the country and it's with me! We will be visiting a variety of themeparks, all/most that I have been to, but Disneyland is still my favorite. I say you cannot be too old for Disneyland, what do you think? Also, in my class today I got 100% on my exam, wheeeu! 7 more days of getting up early for school left, plus I get to see D on Friday. Another highlight is Capital Ex is starting up ( does that give away my location ? oh well ) I was talking about my puppy Deisel earlier today and I found a not too shaby photo of him. He's also in my profile picture licking my face. He looks pretty big, but he's not. He's about the size of a really big shoe box... or a really small moviing box? Bahahah, anways he is super energetic , and can outrun me anyday. Back to California, I'm going to be realy lame when I get there and start singing California Girls, and Californacation, and other California-ey songs. :) , personally I think i have a pretty decent singing voice, but I'm sure some people would say otherwise. Anybody know any good beaches around the Anaheim area? Yes, I've been to California 3 times and haven't gone to any beachs. Time for me to break that streak. Hello bathing suit shopping :) . Any opinions on monokinis ? Cheeers !

Random

Snacks are good and help curb hunger, but I don't ever want to over snack. Things i do insteadof snack if I'm hungry are : FLOSS! , drink water, brush my teeth, do my nails, exercise, and sleep. What helps you guys not-over eat ? Also, random but whats your opinion on belly button rings ? Also, does driving freak you out? ( because it slightly scares me alot )

Voice.

Ten seconds ago I posted my first blog and realized i sounded nothing like me. The whole reason I started blogging was because i wanted and outlet. To be honest , i don't know what I will blog about everyday, but I know one day everything will piece together and maybe I'll start getting readers. My first blog was a flop, but in a couple hours I'll try again. Whats the harm? Either nobody will read it, or somebody will. Is anybody else experiencing really crappy weather ? On and off storms with short breaks of sunshine ? I'm hoping the sun will come out and stay for the rest of the summer. It's one of the things that can make me happy. Other happiness items: watching House, eating cereal, smelling Godiva Chocolate candles, reading a good book, and getting one of those amazing text messages that make you smile endlessly and reading it over and over again . Stay Happy .

my first blog.

Hello there readers. Is anybody out there ? I am curently readin the books : The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin and The China Study by T.Colin Campbell. I can honestly say these two books have changed my life drastically, for the better, and that even if you aren't a "book-person" you should read "The China Study" atleast once in your lifetime. Also, are you one of those females that are way too trusting, fall in love too fast, feel like you eat what you shouldn't and cry all the time? Well, to that I can relate. I'm at a point in my life where I feel like seizing the day, living like there's no tomorrow, but i have so many limitations that I never actually do it. I got my puppy so I could have a loyal "forever" friend, but by the end of the day I am so tuckered out, i hardly see him. He's currently a 9 month old pure bred yorkie, and I love him to pieces but sometimes he is way more playful than I can handle. But maybe, it's just because he's a male. You want them , but sometimes it's too much. Sometimes it's not enough. Sometime's they just run away and are lost forever . I'd like to believe in karma and that everything happens for a reason, but occaisonally i just feel like i got pushed off the curb. Now, when that feeling does come over me, I try to smile. Things can only go up from here. Remember, happiness is more than just being okay, or fine, or content. Happiness is key to life. Now smile.